An introduction: Meet me through my Cosmic Blueprint

For over five years, I’ve been studying Astrology as a result of my own chart reading.

Going into the reading, I knew I was a Taurus sun, but Cosmopolitan Magazine had me all wrong as far as I was concerned. Ya know those horoscope blips heavily read by teens about lifestyles, boyfriends, and fashion? The astrological writer suggested I was practical, calm and earthy. Ask any of my school friends….I was no such things. Turns out, your cosmic makeup is influenced by more than just your sun sign.

My initial reading gave me a bigger picture of my astrological essence- enough to spark an interest to start following ALLLLL the Astrologers and binging every bit of information that I could. The following year, I signed up for my first class. Having followed the teacher for over a year, I knew we’d go deep - something I would later learn that my moon sign appreciates.

In a Cosmic Blueprint (your birth chart), there are 12 houses, 12 signs and 9+ planets or asteroids. Each house, sign and planet/asteroids carries it’s own energy, and it’s placement gives us more context to how that will play out for each person Knowing these details empowers you to show up in the best capacity possible.

My Cancer rising (or ascendant), knows I need to set boundaries for myself. Because when I don’t, I will care for everthing and everyone before myself. And I’m really good at it. Ask my dogs who after roughly 3 hours this weekend had a branch, fall leaves and acorn-free paradise. I LOVE LOVE LOVE when my people are nourished, and deeply value the strength I have to intuitively and warmly know what everyone needs. But when I’ve dishonored myself and not created space to receive, I get moody. My family pays the price in my system crashing, irritability or saying no to everything in an effort to combat depletion.

Moving forward to my third house of the mind, it’s easy for my inner critic to be bossy and lead the show. Childhood trauma has made evolving this aspect of self much more challenging. I have my spiritual girlies grid-scattered in Washington (and one now in Texas) to thank for their patience, as I spent the last decade, and then some unlearning and rewiring. Looking back, I recognize how often my care givers shame of me, became my story. So I used the shame as motivation to be better, or would let it swallow me into a depression. As I write this, I am reflecting on the fact that I have always sought alternative health, and value how much it impacted my moments when the over-analyzing, shame-critic had full control. Bravo, girl! Now, I have a name for her, and we have a little talk… “girlfriend…did you ACTUALLY mean that, or do you need a dance/snack reset?” Dancing, energy work and great food (trust me!) are ways I maintain balance.

My house of roots, home, family and mother energy contains two planets - Pluto and Saturn, that damn near take center stage in my chart for my past pain, the way I am healing myself, how my husband and I raise our son, and why I do the work I do. As generational planets, Pluto and Saturn in Libra highlight the quantum idea that my job, and others like myself are here solely to break generational curses and rewrite the narrative for our lineages. Because of my experience, we have raised our son in a way that makes him (as age allows) an equal. His feelings, and input matter to us, and we make plans as a family vs authoritarian parenting. He has witnessed me as a caregiver, a woman with a life outside of the home, and a healer - a balance that many before me didn’t have or create. And I know that the lessons I’m learning and embodying are giving him insight for when he chooses a partner.

Two houses down in my sixth house is a stellium, which is fancy for lots of energy in one house. Envision, if you will, a house with three generations inside. It can be a beautiful, delicately balanced dance, or complete Home Alone-like chaos. It is the house of service and habits. For me, 1/3rd of my stellium contains the planet of unpredictable and sudden changes, which I can usually handle like a pro. Take for instance our most recent move from our rental house to the place we bought. The homeowner had decided to sell the house, a wise choice for him, really. Our plan originally had been to live in the rental through the renovation of the home we bought. Instead of an additional 6-9 months with the slow time to pack, everything was condensed to three weeks. Now that we’re here, moving through plans with care and intention, I struggle feeling the contraction before the expansion (the finished product) more than the pressure cooker of a move. I am continually learning and editing how I enter and hang out in the place I’d call the void (where it seems like nothing is happening, but in reality, ALLLLLL the things are happening)

In the next house over, my house of partnerships asks for grounded, long-term energy. While I have no planets in this house, the essence of this house dictates where I invest my time - some of my best friends have been around for 20+ years, and my husband and I are in year 22 together. One of the challenges I have found myself in is meeting people for short times and having things fizzle out (some of this energy is seen in the previous house and an aspect to my 12 house) I imagine it to be like hiring someone and they work for a month or less. You’ve invested in the long haul, but if it doesn’t pan out, the feelings of hurt or disappointment rise knowing you were ready to settle in.

One house over from the house of partnerships is my house of all things taboo and “underworld-ish”. This house contains what some astrologers have titled the conglomerate of dark goddesses - Black Moon Lilith. This energy gives me full permission to be weird at a level most won’t go. Here I show up authentically (especially within my romantic relationship) rebelliously, and untamed. Perfect example: for my 40th birthday, instead of getting dressed up to the nines, and hitting a fancy club or restaurant, four girlfriends and I hit the woods for the weekend and frolicked around in ghost costumes taking photos and living our most hauntingly, unbothered life! I may or may not have trespassed to get some of said photos (ooooh! rebellion) This weekend would inspire a matching tattoo session with one of the *ghouls* and subsequent ghost shoots whenever we’re together.

The ninth house holds my moon and destiny point. It not only asks for my inner world to be led and inspired by my psychic and intuitive channel, but the work which I share with my clients and community are also nourished by it. These placements also ask for me to learn and walk from a place of freedom and truth. Anything less would be a disservice. I have come to deeply honor that assignment, professionally and personally.

Two houses down, holds the bulk of my energy - A 5-planet stellium. And honestly, she asks for a lot. Shine, but do so in full weirdo fashion, with great clothes. Spend a lifetime unlearning, rewiring, and learning isolation in every community you become a part of. Have passion for, oh I don’t know, renovating homes, but know it’s going to take longer than HGTV’s 1 hour house pump out. Be humanly programmed to speak and think slowly, in a world that moves at lighting speed. At least when it does come out, it’s grounded. Perhaps that why I do what I do, and I do it well. I have recently come to realize that a lot of my most challenging lessons in life have come from some of these placements. I have stepped through these points of tension through a lot of the work I do professionally, as well as asking spirit for gentle lessons in stability, confidence to hold true in storms, and security within myself regardless of how I am perceived. Some days I have those skills on lock, and others, I’ve completely lost the plot. All days, I am human and ever evolving.

The final house of wisdom holds two points in space that are simultaneously my greatest joy and largest grief. The 12 house is a house that is veiled and hidden - either I can’t see myself, but most often, others can’t see how I move from this house. This house of lessons can sometimes feel like a chronic illness - spending a lot of time navigating, accomodating and nourishing the energies. Sometimes I’m successful. A lot of times, I feel the work goes unnoticed. But all days I work at it, and it is this: community and communication, and what I seek and value from my closest relationships. After over a decade in personal evolution, I have a lot of great tools to support this adventure of a house, and have even understood some of the assignment to be sharing what I have learned (my Venus in Gemini)

Learning (and sharing) astrology has been formulaic for understanding all energy levels of being human, and gives permission to moving from my best and most freedom-filled self. I would love to help you as well. Let’s connect - see you in the stars!